i'm losing my edge.

I just discovered that I have like serious social problems

I have like super bad anxiety when people get too close to me and it sucks, because I get really lonely normally because I don’t have many people to hang out with, but I don’t want to like get close to anyone. Oh man this sucks.

I just gave a new friend of mine my phone number and now I’m like having an anxiety attack WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME

Maybe this is just because I’ve had TERRIBLE experiences with people getting way too close to me and then making expectations for me that I don’t end up fulfilling. And because of this, I’ve started to think that every friendship I ever have will be just like this, so I tend to keep friends at an arms length, and this SUCKS and I DON’T LIKE IT but I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO.

Maybe I need counseling or something? I don’t know, this is just something about me that is bothering me.